I Was Burned...

...but i call it a lesson learned

so, the summer romance i spoke of before was just that, & it faded just as the heat did. J told me to stop talkin to him & that it was just gona upset me in the end, but of course i didnt listen. & i guess i shouldnt have anyway bcuz life is about making your own decisions and learning from your own mistakes right?

well, all of the signs were there: failure to commit, keeping it on the DL, always being sneeky, always making me commute. so those all should have been red flags for me but i wanted to believe that it was just my imagination & that he had trust issues when the real problem was that he was a player & thought he could get everything he wanted out of me.

he did get some things out of me, but he knew how deeply i felt and how to push the right buttons and manipulate me into waiting on his ass hand and foot. because im just that type of person, i try to make everyone else happy without thinking of whats going to make me happy, and if my actions toward everyone else are going to end up affecting me in a negative way....but i guess i just want people to be the best they can be, and i want to stick around to see them accomplish what i know they have the potential for. and i want the best for everyone that i care about. 

and oh did i care for him, i still do & dont want to see anything happen to him or his son (who i absolutely adore btw)

but i was severely taken advantage of. and now im stuck wondering, again, what is wrong with me.  when there really isnt anything wrong with me, i just seem to be attracted to these idiotic, unmotivated beef heads who think that they can control and dominate women just because thats how it was 100 years ago. but not this woman, and not anymore. im going to get my life on track and make something of myself, and next year when i am fully accomplished and you are still stuck in the same spot in life doing nothing with yourself you'll be sorry you didnt let me rub off on you, and you'll be sorry that u let me slip away, cuz hunny, there arent many out here like me. there are a few, but we are few and far between...

i am done for the night i guess, time to take a bubble bath and let my problems float away

until next time
xoxo,
SayyDeeGee

CALM DOWN!

so, i've come to the conclusion that the partying scene is NOT for me anymore.
i'm not down for the stayin out till 3 and goin 2 work at 730 thing anymore. not the business.
& its so much drama! gettin dressed, findin somewhere to go, then goin somewhere else, and somewhere else, and somewhere else. its exhausting!

i'm ready to settle down and stay home with my blanket all night and watch movies with a glass of wine. maybe a hunny, maybe not. im fine either way. 

maybe when i turn 21 i'll go 2 the club occasionally, but only if i dont have 2 work the next day, cuz Sadie needs a break! lol

i just dont understand why you would wana go out and party and get shit faced EVERY WEEKEND NIGHT. doesnt that get old??? 

and i dont think i can talk to someone who is out all the time like that, cuz ima always be at home. && they'll always be out & prolly wont have their priorities together.

idk...thats jus where my mind is right now

xoxo
SayyDeeGee

People Amaze Me!

so today at work started out like a normal day, but one by one the customers got weirder and weirder.

I walk up to this elderly mans car and ask him what kinda wash he wants
(i work at a car wash btw)
so he goes "oh, the inside and the outside"
i say, "would you like tireshine on your tires?"
he says, "hey baby, whatever gets you off"
lmao! i just laughed and said okay. 

then, this scrawny guy with an afro comes through...
ME: hi how are you?
HIM: great Sexy, whats your name? Shaday?
ME: no its Sadie
HIM: like 'Sadie Hawkins' ? i'll take you to Sadie Hawkins. we'd look cute together
ME: hahaha what kinda wash did you want today?
HIM: i want the Sexy Wash, cuz ur so Sexy. . . Can i wash you baby??
ME: hahaha, so did you want the inside and outside done?
HIM: yea gimme the cheapest one that does the inside (<< not a good look lol)
ME: ok its $13.99 whats your name?
HIM: Iassic, do you want my number too?
ME: nope, have a Fabulous Day

i was like, really???? im hot, irritated, no makeup on, hair a hot mess && u really gona pull some isht like that? SMH!

then there was the lady who didnt understand why her car got dirty again after she got it washed...........
>>>really??
um, you drive around and stuff TWIT! why wouldnt your car get dirty???? dumb *&%$#

people are so stupid i dont know how they get by on a daily basis. *sigh*

xoxo
>>>SayyDeeGee

The Beginning of the Rest of My Life

so, i just started school last monday at Nevada School of Massage Therapy.
its been so motivational, its crazy. i have so many goals that i'm going to reach in the next 7 months, i know its gonna go by sooo fast. its rather scary, but hey, life is kinda scary isnt it?

......

one of my teachers today told us a story about a girl that went there who was homeless. she stayed at the school all day until they kicked her out at around 10pm, then rode the city bus all night, in a square around Las Vegas. then in the morning she would get on the connecting bus to come back to the school, wait until they opened the doors and go into the bathrooms to freshen herself up as best as she could, and go on about her day like nothing was wrong.

i almost cried when she told us this story. i felt so blessed to have some place to call home, and i think that we as people take things for granted so much. not knowing what tomorrow has to bring for us. you never know when you could be living out of your car, or in a bus.

i think we should all be grateful for the blessing of today, and grateful of the idea of tomorrow.

.....

but other than that my school experience has been awesome so far. i fell asleep during a massage today and was snoring a bit. lOl. but im reaaaaally motivated and excited to get on with my career.


so, until next time
thats my life In a NutShell

xoxo

summer's almost over

and that sucks cuz it feels like its just began. . .

didnt get an 'out of vegas' vacation. but i had a weekend away with Sporks and we had a lil kickback for our bdays. it was hella chill and relaxing. and i got to spend some quality time with the BooFace (i totally loved that)

school is starting in 2 weeks so i'm super excited for that. i'll be a licensed massage therapist in approx 7 months =] im ready to get on with my life and make something of myself.

hopefully 'summer romance' will last longer that the summer. so, we shall see

i'll keep u posted

till next time thats my life in a nutshell

xoxo

The First Rodeo

so, this is the first time i've ever written a blog, so its new to me... i guess you just come on here and talk? well, not talk but type (obviously) lol.

---> well today was quite uneventful for me. just worked, saw someone, went to eat with J, and got my meal paid for by some guy that wants to get into J's pants. lol its always good to have her around =]

---> came home and pried myself out of the recliner that claims my consciousness whenever i sit in it, and then wake up hours later (usually around 2 or 3 am) and don't know where i am or what my name is. lol

---> so tonight i will either go tipsy bowling with J ; or simply emerge myself in endless somber due to the fantastic fact that i dont have to be up at 6am tomorrow.

and that was my day, in a nut shell...
until next time
xoxo

SayyDee Gee